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REGRET

Well , it’s been a long time since my last blog but I have been having a lot of distractions going on my mind so it’s been a long time coming this blog about my regrets .

So yeah everyone loves to have a little change in their habitand in life and me being a very unstable guy ( a pun intended :p ) this changes tend to come a little more often . These changes well it’s not like I love to hang out with new people and forget the old ones but with the changes comes so fast and more it’s what happens more than often . So sometimes I think you know I shouldn’t have made that and then regret on it . And believe me or not these regrets haunt you a lot if you get cut off . I was saw this movie called Eternal Sunshine of Spotless Mind , a great movie by the way , so the movie is about regret and the regret getting out of control . So you are ready to get away from any thing related to regret and ready to forget them . Well what I think is we should not forget all of them because they might be one the best things that ever happened to you and then these regrets might help you be a better person in the future . Well to reduce the regret I would go get a hobby . Go to gym , get bulky ,go learn to solve Rubik’s cube ( I just put that to tell that yes I can do that , I know not a big deal but hell yeah I can do that ) or you can start writing a blog just like I did . They won’t probably make you forget all of them but surely help you distract your brain and fool it .And the something less is better the the whole thing  (I know I messed the last line but what the hell ) . And whenever your regret comes back you can go cry , sometimes crying out with your bestfriend is the best .

So that’s all I think we need to be strong and regret less because we only live once and live it full . I hope my distractions are less and I come up with more stuffs more often . That’s it from me this blog .

 

” BRUTALLY HONEST ”  thats my motto till next time “ I COME IN PEACE ”

A Call

A day no different than any other day

I sit doing nothing and nothing to say

My phone rings I wonder who it shall be

Because no one usually calls me

A girl it is !! I thank my lucky stars

I start dreaming about my future

I start seeing the big picture

I see myself being the hero of every romantic movie

An unknown call from a girl and we get together

My dream girl on the other end , her voice so cozy

I dream about my dogs’ name with her to remember

I start dancing don’t know why

Although the steps seemed like no fly

By this time I’ve listened to nothing she said

And paid no attention to names she took

And then it’s a loud stern voice I hear

“ Hello Is Phillip there ”

And then I realise how could I forget my luck

With which I know always my life suck

No lucky late night calls I had I could remember

And this one too was nothing but a wrong number .

Are you Depressed ???

Depression . I know it’s tough . I have been depressed a lot of times . We expect ourselves a lot of stuffs and our expectations don’t meet up a lot of times . You start to compare with the life you have to what you had in your mind . It’s way different . It all effects you a little but you’ll be like ahh it’ll be alright I just need a little more time . You go to your workplace or your school or college , you find yourself underperforming and you know you can do better than that and that one time you actually did your best work but noone notices you . It’s hard but you’ll be like alright it’s gonna be okay they’ll notice it eventually . You guess that person you value the most understands you and feels the depression getting on you and would come help you out but that never happens because it’s you who value them not they who value you . You understand that eventually and it comes on you a little harsh but you’ll be like it’s alright it happens but inside now the depression level has gone up a notch . You come back home you find you being compared to others on you being so unsuccessful and your life not being that ‘ PERFECT LIFE ‘ they had expected you to get . You start to think that seriously your life has being shit and nothing valuable has come out of it and it’s not worth living your life . You think suicide is the best you can do and that others won’t probably won’t even care if you’re there or not and you end your life .

The depression has consumed a lot of life in this world we know now . We expect so much from ourselves nowadays and the expectations of others from us is also a lot now that it is very common to see a person in depression . Although depression not considered as a major thing now but it’s time to take it up seriously . We need to stop taking the failure so hard on us . We need to learn from the failure and work on ourselves to make a better version of us rather getting depressed on being failed . We need to start valuing the people who value you and think about them too . And last of all suicide is never an option you have got one life and killing yourself is the worst you can do . Take your life as you take in a game . You have got one life set and if you lose it it’s game over what do you do , you go for the highscore . You try to save yourself from dying and try to score as many points as you can and you never kill yourself in a game . That’s how you do in your real life too .

If you feel depressed talk to someone . And someone talks to you feeling depressed never say that you’re busy and turn them off . Help them out before it’s too late .

That’s it from me .

” BRUTALLY HONEST ”  thats my motto till next time “ I COME IN PEACE ”  🙂

Life and Death

I was just watching the movie Collateral Beauty and it just hit me again and to be honest I do really think about it a lot of time . Life is never a permanent thing , what if the very next moment something happens to you and it turns out you just have 2 months left to live .

There are lot of ways a person handles such situation :

One he would tell all his friends and then try to spend all his time with them

The other would be not telling anyone but still trying to enjoy every last bit of time you have got left .

You know what I would do , I would rather do the cruel and the tougher one that is not telling anyone and start pissing off people . What I would think maybe if people get pissed off you they would be less used to you being around and then once you’re dead you know not much changes for them or they don’t miss anything . I don’t why but I always feel that’s the best way to do it .

The fear of death has always haunted the humans . It is not about dying it’s about not living which scares us . Because we humans we tend to realise stuff quite late , when we are about to loose it and we all be like we should have done this and that and blah blah blah .

So yeah again life is never permanent , you don’t even know what would happen to you by the time you finish reading this blog so enjoy and cherish each and every piece of it like it’s the last hour , the last minute or the last second .

” BRUTALLY HONEST ”  thats my motto till next time “ I COME IN PEACE ”  🙂

TRUST

Life in this world is very complicated . We desire for being rich and famous which is achievable but on the way to it we lose something which takes forever if gone . It is very rightly said in this picture down here .

I have this sad habit ( it is not sad actually but then for this modern world people do judge it by calling it sad ) of trusting people blindly . I know it really sounds bad but I actually trust people very fast . I mean like I make new friends and then even though it takes time for me to bond but I tend to trust them before I start bonding with them which absolutely crazy . And in return a lot of them turns out to be those ‘ Fake Friends ‘ who are just there for their need and once done they are gone POOF !!

But what do I do when my trust is broken . Do I rebel ? Do I stop trusting people ? Do I stop talking to the people who betrayed me ?

I want to do all those but no I can’t . I do want to rebel and then stop talking to those people as if they are dead to me . Yes, I do want to just stop trusting people it is not worth . But I know if you do that , it is wrong because it was the person who betrayed who was wrong not you . 

Trusting people is gift which not everyone has it . You are special to have it .

Now not every person who betrays a betrayer . Sometimes it is the situation which forces you to lie to the other person . Sometimes it is good to lie rather than losing or hurting someone . That’s what I feel but doing that on a regular basis is what kills your trust .

It is very hard to trust the person again but it is never impossible to . Sometimes you just have to look into their eyes and find out the truth and then start believing the person again because he was too scared of letting you go . 

Whatever you do try to NEVER EVER break someone’s trust by lying because as Bo Bennett said :

You always try to say the truth because you also got to have trust on others . How can someone trust someone else if he himself breaks the trust .

Our Guardian Angel

We come to this Earth ,as a blessing 

Our guardian angels always their by our side 

We open ours eyes to this world 

They are the first thing we see

We make mistakes and hurt them a lot

But they are still there by our side 

We fall , we stumble ,we cry thinking we are alone

But we have our angels to pick us up and motivate us 

They know what we like ,

They know what we want ,

They know what wrong we do ,

But they still stick by our side

Because they are our Guardian Angel

We grow up thinking we know everything ,

But we are still dumb ,

We say things , we do thing to hurt them

We think being grown up means we know everything

But our angel they stick by our side still

We find new people , think they are our world

We forget our angel and take them for granted

Again we hurt them so bad

But they stick by our side

The new people in our life go away ,

Leaving us all alone and now nowhere to go

Just one place to go

And that is to our angel
We all have this Guardian Angel and they are our parents . 

I know I probably would never say this out loud or even to them but I love them a LOOOOOOOOOT . They are always my inspiration , my strength and I always think what would happen if they were not there .

By the way my mom too does read my blog so lemme just say it out loud Mamma and Papa I am sorry for everytime I hurt you or you were embarrassed because of me . I promise I will never let you down again or atleast I will try hardest not to .

I dedicate this Mamma and Papa . 

Night Adventures

I wake up in middle of the night, my mind not letting me sleep. Is it something troubling me or someone who I have been thinking about troubling me, I didn’t know. I try to tire my mind by distracting it with a movie, but wait there is something strange under my blanket. I jump off the bed thinking it to be something really weird animal or insect instead it turns out it was my muscles. I could move any muscles in my body, every piece of muscle in my body. This reminded me of all the superhero movies how the heroes start getting their power. So to test what powers I had I started testing all of them. The first thing I tried was, thinking to fly who knows I just might. However, the only thing which went up and down were my ears. Next up is the power of strength; I hit the wall with all my might and strength wishing to see a hole in the wall the very next moment. But the only thing which felt had hole was my hand after being hit so bad. What powers could I have I thought, then I leaned on the wall thinking and I could feel the walls much more grippy. I tried to hang onto the wall and voila I was here climbing the wall like spiderman. I went on top of the ceiling because it was fun and I had to test my power. Suddenly I hear the siren roaring across the place, thinking this was my chance to shine as superhero I tried to move across the ceiling to go out and I hit the ground hard.

Then I realized it was my mobile’s alarm ringing and it was all but just a dream.
I never get up in middle of night. I literally pass out as if I am dead once I hit the bed.
PS I got my love, my phone back 😜 .